Star Award!

The past few days I've been emailing PALS back and forward about the two nurses who where so kind to me last Friday.  Today I got an email advising me to fill in nomination forms for Star Employee at the hospital and email them to to nominations and PALS will email the nurses surnames so they know who they are.

I'm so happy!!  They went above and beyond. I want them to know how grateful I am and others to know what amazing nurses they are.  Apparently closing day for the nominations is this Friday.  PALS are going to let me know if they get the award or not.  I have no idea when that will be.  I'll just have to wait on tender hooks until I hear!!

I really do hope they win.  They both deserve to.

Bye x

Best daughter in the world!

I really don't know what I'd of done without Teri the last few days.  She's cooked dinners, looked after me and made me laugh.  Without her life would of been very difficult. She's gone above and beyond what a daughter should do plus she did a sponsored gym yesterday (Shame only 3 people sponsored her :-( Please donate here- http://www.justgiving.com/SPONSORED-GYM )

Teri is nearly 16 and has turned into a lovely, kind, empathic young lady.  People say kids turn bad because they've had a hard life.  Well Teri suffers from PTSD, Depression and Fibromyalgia but she turned out ok!  She is a young carer and has been since she was 3 years old, but she turned out ok!  She suffered horrendous bullying, a lot of the time because I'm disabled, BUT SHE TURNED OUT OK!

If having a tough life makes you a violent, foul mouthed, inconsiderate brat then Teri should be running around the streets, smashing windows and mugging old ladies!  Instead she's studying like mad, worrying about getting good grades and knows exactly what she wants to do at Uni and has even looked into employment options!  

I can't begin to put into words how proud of her I am.  It's weeks like this that show how well she's done and how well she can do.  I can't wait to see what she does in the next 16 years.

Thank you Teri xx 

Next time you feel like shouting at a nurse remember....

I spent yesterday in Swindon's A&E department. There was 2 amazing nurses covering 15 beds (Emergency bed not routine!) Each bed was held there because the wards they should of been sent to was full.  These 2 nurses didn't complain when there was a line of paramedics and patients waiting to get in, they didn't complain when a 'patient' threw a tantrum because they weren't allowed out for a cigarette on health grounds, nor did they complain when they same patients friend kicked off saying 'she'll be ok, I'll be with her!'  They held it in when another patient kicked off complaining he'd been there for 30 minutes and the consultant hadn't been down.  They carried on and put up with more crap than I could of ever put up with.

A patient was waiting for an ambulance to take him back to a cottage hospital, in the end they had to put in in resus because it hadn't turned up and they needed the bed.  

While rushing about one of them realised I was upset and crying.  She stopped and came over and gave me a big hug.  I told her she should carry on as she was busy, she said 'No, I've got time for you'.  Those words reduced me to tears (again!) She was so rushed off her feet and probably would go 12 hours without sitting down but she had time to comfort me when I was down.

It's hard not to bring politics into this.  Of course it's political!  Those poor nurses were probably on minimal wage and they get abuse every shift!  How can the government say they're saving the NHS when it's in this state??  Over the last 13 years I've spent a lot of time in A&E and I can honestly, with hand on heart say that it has NEVER been this bad! Each patient in yesterday was a complicated and possibly even high risk case, there should of been at least double the number of nurses there.  There should also be beds to move people to.  A&E is not a ward.  They should be administering emergency care then the patient move on.

I'm putting this on my facebook, my blog and Twitlonger and I hope that people read and share this.  If nothing else I want people to know that the nurses in A&E work hard and go above and beyond.  So next time you are in there and you feel like shouting because you meds are late, the consultant hasn't been or you want a cigarette stop and think about who you're shouting at.  The poor nurse you scream at is only doing their job and probably that of several other nurses, they probably have been on their feet for hours and will be for hours more, but they won't complain.  Why? Because they care and that's why they do the job they do. 

I want to say a big thank you to Emma and Helen.  I truly don't know how I'd of coped with out the 2 best nurses in the NHS yesterday.  Thank you xx

This is why I love her!

Molly suddenly got better yesterday.  She was bouncing about and back to her normal self.  It was lovely to see and a big relief.

Then last night I was very ill.  I'd been struggling for a few days, determined to keep going.  Then last night it hit me with a vengeance.  I thought I was going to have to go to the hospital I was so ill.  Molly sensed I was ill and curled up on me being careful not to hurt me.  Her just being there helped me and made me feel loved.  I don't know how I coped without her.

I'm still feeling rough now but the pain has eased a little.  I'm having an early night with Mol then I'll see how I am tomorrow morning.  One thing I know is if I am awake ill tonight I won't be alone.  Mol will be there for me.

Bye x

Poorly Mol!

We've been a bit worried about Molly the last 48 hours.  She was really down and kept going to the gate, looking down the road.  She was really out of sorts. We then had a 'd'oh' moment when we realised that she was missing the two boys!  

Today she's had lots of cuddles and walks then this afternoon I had to go out.  I was only out for 40 mins tops.  She wasn't happy I was going but when I got home she was back to her usual bouncy self and fine again!

I think the boys going triggered her insecurities and she worried we were going to leave her too.  By me going out then coming back she realised we weren't going to leave her.  Hopefully she's snapped out of it now and she'll be ok again.  It was heart breaking seeing her that upset.

As for me, B12 jab again.  Kind of explains why I've been so down the last few weeks.  Hopefully by tomorrow I'll feel a bit better.  If not I'm sure Mol will cheer me up!

That reminds me, yesterday I left Molly home with Teri while I went shopping.  Teri was watching Extreme Makeover Home Edition.  She said it was a really heartbreaking story and it made her cry.  Molly went up to her and tapped her on her arm, Teri turned round and Mol gave her a big hug!  Teri said she realised what a special little dog she is.  She knew Teri was upset and wanted to make her happy.  She's done it to me a few times but it's the first time she's done it to Teri.  I think it made Teri feel a bit special and closer to Mol too.

Here's hoping we don't have to cheer Mol up tomorrow and the old Mol is back.

Bye x

New layout

Been playing about with the background.  What do you think?  Is it ok to read?

One busy weekend!!

This weekend we had my sister in laws two 8 month old Jack Russell's.  Yes it was as manic as you think it would be but it was fun!!

They all got on really well.  Buddy the dominant pup is very into play fighting and wanted to be in charge but accepted that Molly was boss.  They had great fun play fighting and rolling in the mud!  

Little Spot is, to quote his mum 'a few sandwiches short of a picnic!' He's not into play fighting so when Molly tried to get him to join in he wasn't sure and ran inside!  Instead every time Molly sat on my lap he'd try and curl up with her.  The problem being Molly has been a lone dog 95% of her life so she's not sure about dogs cuddling up with her!  By Sunday morning he hadn't given up.  He waited until Molly was asleep on my lap then curled up beside me and stretched over with his nose and put it on her back!  It was so cute!  They stayed like that for an hour until she woke and was a bit stunned!! She turned around and went back to sleep so he moved over again and put his nose back on her! 

By Sunday tea time they'd all sorted their places and were getting on perfectly.  It was so sweet.  When they left she stood by the gate watching the car drive away.  It was heart breaking.  She came in and we made a big fuss of her.  She then collapsed on the sofa and slept until bed time!!  

This morning was fun.  She wouldn't get up so I left her a while, an hour and a half later this was her answer to getting up!  As you can see she wasn't keen.  To put it mildly!  Even now at 9am she's asleep on my lap after being dragged outside.  I think she loved having the boys over for a weekend but any more might finish her off!!!!

At least she's got some time to rest.  It's half term so Teri and I are off to meet up with my friend and her 18 month old son.  So while we have coffee and chat Molly can curl up at home and sleep!

The house seems quiet this morning, but I wouldn't want 2 JR puppies myself! They're mad!!! Lovely but mad! 

Time to get ready.  Poor Mol!! lol!

Bye xx

Poorly

Poor Molly isn't well this morning.  She's been sick and now she's curled up on my lap, stomach gurgling, feeling very sorry for herself.  Hopefully she's just eaten something and she'll be better soon.  She's really out of sorts.  I hate seeing her like this.

Bye x

First bath!

Well that was fun!!  Just gave molly her first bath, well shower!!  She wasn't keen.  She stood outside the bathroom door as I called her in with a look that said 'Why? You never let me go in the bathroom so why do you want me in there now??'  In the end I had to pick her up and carry her in!  

Now, I thought it was going to be easy because every time we get the hose out she runs over and wants to play chase the water.  Oh how wrong I was!!!  She refused to go in the shower so I put her in and washed her.  That was fun.  I swear I need 4 hands!  I managed to get her washed, soaped and rinsed.  Now towel time.

Curled up sleeping
after bath time fun!

If you'd ever seen Molly coming in muddy and me trying to wipe her feet with a towel you'll know this was always going to be the hardest part!!!  A lot of messing about and I got her fairly dry.  The next thing I know she's rubbing against my leg!  I go and open the back door to let her go out and she didn't want to.  I went and sat down and she jumped up and rubbed herself all over me!!  Basically if I was going to get her wet she was going to soak me!  She thought it was great fun, funnily enough I didn't! 

Once she'd dried and finished running about she curled up on my lap with her old blanket.  She's now sound asleep and cleaner than she was!  Here's hoping she doesn't need another shower for a very long time!!! lol!!

Does this dog ever wake up???!

I've noticed a lot of Molly's pictures are of her sleeping.  It's not that she's always asleep, its just the one time she's still so I can get a photo!! Here's a few more sleepy photos!:

Molly's 'bed'!

In the morning Molly goes back to bed while I go in the shower.  A few days ago she found a new place to sleep, the top of my bed!!


I can't lie flat so the head of my bed is raised up, then I've got a body pillow I use but during the day I put it in the gap between the top of the bed and the wall.  That's where Molly is!!!  The first time she did it she took her blanket up with her and burrowed under it and I couldn't find her!! I thought she'd got out some how then I saw two eyes peaking out from under the blanket!  This morning it was obviously too much effort to take her blanket with her!! lol!

Looking at that photo she looks tiny.  That's my pillow in front of her.  I forget she's smaller than our cats.

Molly's quilt and toys

Molly's Pet Pocket

Last month I found a great site on Facebook called Sarah's Crafty Sew n Sews.  My friend had got several things from her for her dog and they were all really good quality.  So I got Molly a quilt and two 'squggies' (tugga toys).  She has the quilt on the sofa and if she's cold she'll curl up on it next to me rather than on me because it's warmer for her.  Last week I ordered her a Pet Pocket, it arrived this afternoon.  As soon as I opened the outer bag she saw the material and dived at it!! So I put the pocket on the recliner and she jumped up and into it!!  That was 30 mins ago and she's not moved since so I'm guessing its a hit?! lol! Have to say its really soft and warm.  Perfect for cold days like today.  It's big enough for her to climb in and walk around in so hopefully I can put it on the bed and she can snuggle under it when she's cold.  She won't go under the quilt, which I guess is a good thing! I just worry she gets too cold.  This way if she does she can curl up in the pocket.

Bye x