Lots happening and happened!

Teri and Molly's walk

Sorry I've not posted for a while.  I've not been well and life has been busy.  I seem to be spending all my time catching up.

Yesterday was a good day.  Steve an I went to London for a fund raiser so Teri stayed home with Molly.  They had a good day.  They curled up in the morning and went for a long walk in the afternoon.  Poor Molly was shattered after a very long walk so she curled up and slept!!!  

Teri broke Molly! lol!

While I was in London I was talking to a friend of Steve's about dogs and how his son brought him a dog when he left home for Canada.  He said he got his dad the dog to keep him company while he was away.  He was saying that the dog had filled the space of a child and he was sightly obsessed with the dog and didn't like to leave him.  It was lovely to speak to some one who feels the same way I do!  I love Teri to pieces and no one will ever replace her but she's growing up and doesn't need me as much any more.  So Molly has stepped into the dependant spot in my life!  

Teri has always been very independent, even before she was a young carer! but now she's leaving school and starting A levels she's getting on with her life and leaving me behind.  Which is how it should be.  That's part of being a kid.  You grow up and leave people behind.  Molly came along at a time when Teri was moving on and she needed some one to care for her.  So we care for each other.  She's there for me and I'm there for her.  Yesterday I missed them both so much.  It was lovely to go out for the day but it's even better to come home.

I was given a single red rose yesterday!  I've never been given a single rose like that!  It was from a friend. He thought he'd offended me, he hadn't! I was more worried about him than anything else!  He was angry about something and I was worried he would do something stupid and get in trouble.  It was lovely being given the rose!  I don't think he realised how much it meant to me.  For some one to think of me like that was really kind.

Mark 'dancing'!!

It was fun at the Dublin Castle.  Mark and Karen came with us, Mark had fun dancing away!!!  I had a laugh with some mates and made some new mates while cheering on Wales in the Rugby!  I've not got a clue about it but I'm part Welsh so I cheered them on! lol!

More Madness

After the rugby I went into the back room and watched More Madness play.  They were really good.  They played all Madness songs and not a few Madness songs and the rest ska.  They also got the crowd going which was good.  Hopefully they'll play again at a Mad Chat Fund Raiser.  

Steve raised a lot yesterday.  £2400 on the Just Giving site for ticket sales then another £240 through sales of donated items.  All the money is going to Teenage Cancer Trust.  Each fund raiser he raises more. People are so generous.  We had donations of items and so many cash donations.  It's lovely and shows people can be very kind and generous even at times when money is tight.

I've decided to spend less time on the PC and more time relaxing doing crafts etc.  I've ordered 'Art Therapy' Magazine and I'm going to set aside time each day for that, I'm also reading Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman's Good Omens book.  I've read it before, about 17 years ago but I'm determined to read it again.  I remember it being very funny and clever!  I'm also crocheting a blanket for me and Molly to curl up under in the winter.  I've done a load of squares so far but I've got loads more to do!  It's something to keep my hands and mind busy.

I'd like to say that I've been out and about having fun the last few weeks and that's why I haven't been on here.  Nothing could be further from the truth.  I'm having big problems with my diabetes.  I don't usually talk about my diabetes because I worry that people will think I'm diabetic because I'm fat and lazy.  I wish!  Mine is due to damage to my pancreas.  It's been 12 years since I was first diagnose, everything was ok.  Under control etc.  Then 12 months ago it went tits up!  It took months and a lot of support from my diabetic nurse Rachel to get things stable.  Then out of the blue 6 weeks ago things suddenly went tits up again!  So back to Rachel every week and up my meds.  After a few weeks it was clear that despite putting my meds up and up.  So now I've got to go back this Tuesday and see what the next plan of action is.  

I know people think diabetes is just high glucose levels, it's not.  In my case it causes my pancreas and liver to swell causing severe pain.  On top of that it sets off other conditions causing pain and discomfort.  So I've spent a lot of time at home in pain.  I'm hoping that I'm reaching the end of it all now and I'll get the meds sorted and everything else will follow.  

Nurse Molly has been very good!!  She forces me to sit down then sits on me so I can't go any where!!! lol!  She's been a god send.  When I'm feeling rough she's there to cheer me up and give me cuddles.  I don't know what I'd do without her.  She's my angel.

Bye xx